The Struggle

Some of the people who have followed this blog for a while know that I like to switch it up from entertaining items to my personal anecdotes.
Well, now I'm going with the anecdotes. If it bores you, turn away now. This is going to get messy.
When I first moved to L.A. from Seattle I was wandering out of the wilderness-- I had wasted away years trying to find a job almost ANYWHERE after I had attended University of Michigan and Western Michigan University. Obviously Michigan was hit hard by economic crisis even BEFORE the recession set in; I was almost forced to move to Seattle based on a job prospect... that never panned out.
When I moved to L.A. I met many people like me-- dead-enders, if you will-- people who were told since birth that a career in entertainment is virtually impossible yet found themselves stuck in the predicament of "if I can't even do something that I only slightly like, why not try my hand at something I love- even if I fail?" We were societal rejects. I attended film school at a trade school in Hollywood. Everyone whom I met and liked (8 or so people) is gone now. They returned to their native states or countries. The nearest person who I like lives in San Diego now. I love San Diego, but the drive is a bitch.
Anyway, I have since met other a few other people-- and even most of them are gone now. Even the guy who I use usually as my director of photography can't do my newest shoot with me because he is going to return to Paris for several months.

As far as relationships are concerned, L.A. is a fucking killer. The people you meet here go in and out of your life like so much pasta. It really tears at you. Even some of the comics I've met and like at open mics are now doing road tours and I never see them anymore. It's a life of capriciousness and insanity.

I don't recommend it to anyone aside from the mentally imbalanced.
And, as I have stated here, if you really love to make films despite the massive setbacks that you experience almost daily, you are in fact mentally imbalanced- obviously I include myself.